Suspended between realities

We feel suspended between two realities right now.  The reality is that it is simply life as usual around here.  The house {always} needs to be cleaned.  There is {always} laundry to do.  There are meals to cook and stories to read and we are having guests at our house on Saturday.  The boys need to get to school on time with their lunches packed. 

But it is also reality that one day in the not so distant future the phone will ring and we will get the news that we have TA.  And our lives will change.  We will need to make plans to get the children to my parents in Texas.  We will need to make plans to fly to China.  We will need to pack up the entire family.  And our reality will never be the same.  Because when we return we will have a new daughter. We will have a new daughter!!

Somehow as we get closer to the new reality it feels more and more like we are hanging in limbo.  And every day it feels like we are just putting in time until we can move on to the new reality.

Annika and I went shopping today.  There is something about getting out of the house that helps me to focus.  It was a good day.  It went by fast.  That is my definition of good right now.  Tomorrow we plan to go help a friend bake and decorate cookies.  Then we have our travel call with our agency.  It will be a good day.  It will go fast.  Fast is good.