God Has Answered - Again { Part 2 }

A couple of weeks ago we had a unique domestic adoption situation mentioned to us.  A baby due mid-July who was not matched with a family.  We thought about it and prayed about it and said that our family could be presented to the birth mother as a possible family for her baby.  This was a huge step of faith as we had very little information about the situation, but if God brings a baby to us we will welcome it with open arms!

We waited to hear.  And I became quite excited at the possibility.  I have such sweet memories of the time our boys were tiny and even though I really tried not to get excited I did.  That is me.  It is a little embarrassing, actually, but opening my heart to a child makes them "mine" even if it is only for a short time.  Even when I advocate for a child they become mine for a time.  So even though I knew the possibility of actually getting to be this baby's parents was very slim, I still let go of my heart for a bit.

Last Friday, we heard that the birth mother had chosen another family.  And, while I wasn't surprised, I was very disappointed.  Because I wanted God to say, "Yes, this baby is yours!"  and He didn't.

Then on Monday I took Annika to our pediatrician because swollen lymph nodes in her neck and behind her ear.  This was her second visit in the last 6 weeks for this issue.  The pediatrician feels that the lymph nodes are not responding appropriately to treatment and that we need to get a biopsy done to find out what is going on for sure.

Now we are hoping and praying that this is not a serious issue.  And our pediatrician did say that he is not terribly worried, but that he felt this was a cautious approach. The biopsy is scheduled for next Wednesday. 

I wanted to be announcing to the world that we are welcoming another child into our family and instead I am asking you all to pray for our sweet little girl.  The possibility of what we could be facing makes me feel weak in the knees.

I want to be able to trust God with all of the answers, not just when it is the answer I am hoping for.  So God is still answering.  God is still good.