|Eliana with her new book from Grandma Martin|
The beginning of a new year is always a good time to reflect and set new goals.
I've been thinking about my life and my weaknesses and the health issues I am dealing with and I've decided that an appropriate word for 2014 is:
I know that God has a purpose and a plan. I want to find joy and peace in accepting His plan for my life.
Lupus is a very limiting illness. There are so many things I can't do. It takes very little to overwhelm me right now. But I want to accept these limitations with grace.
Lupus is also a humiliating illness. It is invisible for the most part. I really don't look sick. I look clumsy and awkward from my hands and legs shaking all of the time, but not ill. I want to accept the humiliation of an invisible illness and the misunderstandings it inevitably brings and try to remember to extend grace to others whose lives I do not understand.
I tend to feel somewhat fearful as look at the coming year. What if I don't get better? What if I can't go to China to do the work I love so dearly? What if I get worse and new symptoms keep coming up? What if the children suffer because of my illness? And on... and on... and on...
So acceptance is a good word for me. Do you choose a word to inspire you in the new year? I'd love to hear your word and why you chose it!
Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in your sight, O Lord, my rock and my redeemer. Psalm 19:14